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Slothful Writer's avatar

*a heavy heavy heavy sigh*

I just want to ask you something first. How does it feel, as a writer, when your writing makes someone SOB?! I'm not even saying it just for the sake of saying it, I cried throughout this piece. Tears are still flowing btw.

I noticed it at first that he's talking to himself, the hollowness, numbness, constant noise eats away at him from inside out. At first, he let it be. But then he couldn't take it anymore. I don't know what I expected at the end, but it still broke me. So much. So haunting, because it's real.

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Jan 22
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You made me emotional too, AGAIN, with this really sweet reply of yours 🤍

Vidhiiii's avatar

This was so deep and so dark that I'm surprised a human could write this, Akash. This had me crying, and thinking in ways I've never thought before. Really good

swapz's avatar

this was......quite a read

haunting and so well written to the point where i could see everything happen as though i were a fly on the wall in that room

i wanna say that you are one of the best writers out here on substack<3

do write more of these postss!

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Mahnoor✨'s avatar

waiiit so he was talking about himselffff??!?

PEAK WRITING 😭😭

☕️دل's avatar

This was so so....haunting, i was holding my breath throughout idk the rage had me shook damn bro

Loved loved reading this 🤍🤍

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The way the rat walks away made me think how, killing ourselves, dying, the pain never ends with us, it passes on unwavered.

I can see how dead is the voice that quietly eats at you while you pretend you're "fine".....and somewhat better than him. While dead doesn't say a word, if we take the name literally, it doesn't say a word, cuz for a depressed man, death just seems soo unbothering, the easiest way out.

The rant where the boy screams at the rat for being unworthy unloved is the boy screaming at himself, it's the rage cloud that takes over when you see NO Reason at all for why you should be alive...

The rat's no reaction shows how depression actually is, just indifference, isolation....not anything dramatic like brown people believe it to be.....just numbness and indifference along with a rat eating you from inside out while you tell at it to stop.

This hit soo close to home. And its funny how good it feels to be seen in a post as heartbreaking as this. Very well written. If...WHEN you write your book, I want to be one of your first readers.

Now I'm gonna binge all your posts💗🫂

Ameliorating A's avatar

Damnnn!! Wowwww...he was not talking to Dead. He was talking about himself. Just so so great man. The inner struggle, the thoughts, the exasperation...you've depicted it all so perfectly. It was such a poignant tale but it was soo soo well written!! Amaaazzzziiiiingggg!!

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Ameliorating A's avatar

It’s my pleasure <33

aari's avatar

Powerful and raw. The tiny details like Dead the rat, the ticking clock, the scattered books make the loneliness feel real. Blew me away!!!!! Loved it man!!!!

Saddhana Velpari's avatar

this was haunting and uncomfortable. like i was physically watching the events play out infront of me. beautiful writing

DEEPESH's avatar

Loved the tiny details❤️